Heyz everyone. i think u might have forgotten about my blog, but its okay, acceptable as i havent been blogging since december 22. WOW! thats like super duper long ago.

Today was extremely horible. I cried 5 times. why? because i didnt get into top8 for shot put. A DSA gal not getting top 8, how embarrassing. but its not that, its because im disappointed in myself, and when ppl tell me that i tried my best, or its okay, or even if they try to comfort me, i feel like just shutting them up. why? thats the thing that makes me cry so much, the comforting words of others. it makes me feel that i let them down, i let myself down.... it just makes my heart just break into many many many pieces, the feeling is unbearable.

Despite all that, this has made me want to achieve something else, something alot greater. Next year, i MUST get top 8, I MUST get 1st position, I MUST hit 12m by next yr, I MUST consistently hit 11m. MY NEW GOAL FROM TODAY TILL NEXT YEAR! this is my season. and NO ONE will take it from me! NO ONE! i will work hard to achieve it n matter wad!